The greatest and saddest time I had ever experienced in my life happened on Tuesday, 26 October 2010; the departure of my dad. There is no word to describe my family’s sorrow and lost at this moment but the grief and emptiness will place within our hearts forever…
My Father, who known as Ah Ji (2nd child of the family) is a strong-willed, dependable and highly respected man. The impression that my dad gave me since young was that he was very fierce and hard to be closed with person. However, if you get to know him better, you will realise that he is actually a very passionate and caring person although he seldom expresses it out verbally to us but we all know deep in our heart that he cares alot for us. My dad is also a very responsible man for the family and under his loving care, we have never suffered from any shelter or food shortages.
My father is not highly educated but despite of his humble ability, he tried his best to provide us with good shelter, food, education and etc. A man who is not well-knowledged was being able to work his way through to support a family of seven, providing them with all the necessities and cares to the family members, who else can be greater than him? And not forgetting that my dad even supported my sis and I to further our studies in Australia and England, isn’t my dad great?
I can’t concentrate much on my work, my mind kept reflecting his imagines of those days when we were together; happy or unhappy, celebrating or quarreling… all these are priceless memories.
I keep asking myself, what I can do to bring back my father’s life, although I know this is never be possible…
Although I do not know where my dad is but I really do hope that he will be fine and had gone to a better place where it is free from sufferings and pain. I pray that he will follow the Buddha’s steps to go to 西方极乐世界. He has sacrificed too much for us.
师傅 said, every each of us is fated to be either friends, lover, sibling, kinship with another person. However, when that very special someone passed away or left us, it means that our fate with this person has ended. How cruel facts it is for human kind but these are the sufferings that all human has to go through. Thus, in order not to go through these traumas repetitively, we should avoid evil, do kind and purify the mind…so that one day we could all go to 西方极乐世界 after we depart from this world.
It is said that 西方极乐世界is a place where it is free from living sufferings, sickness, death and reincarnation. With some enlightenment from师傅, amazingly, I became more calm, especially, my mother.
Today, it has been the 11th day my dad left us, although grief is still inevitable but I hope that every one in my family including myself could brace up soon… my dad will live in our hearts from now on.
Pa… 走好。。。
